In between classes, I sat in my car, door open, and talked on the phone with Tiffany. The important conversation was rudely interrupted by a man riding a old rusty bicycle with a squeaky chain. His once white crew-neck t-shirt was now brown, ripped, and had taken on the form of a V-neck. As he threw down his bike and approached my car, I knew what was about to happen.
My car ran out of gas…it’s up the road…three dollars…my wife…just three dollars for gas…it’s just up the road…I swear to God…
His story had holes in it. If his car really ran out of gas then why the heck was he riding a bicycle (not that I needed any sound reasoning…)? Also, three dollars of gas won’t get you 10 yards these days 
While he pleaded his case I thought to myself, “Crap, do I have any cash in my wallet?”
I wasn’t asking this question because I wanted to give him three dollars. Instead I was wondering if I was gonna have to lie to this bum. Remembering that I had a ten dollar bill in my wallet, I knew what was about to come out of my mouth.
Nah, man. I never carry cash on me. Sorry dude…
I lied. I lied while looking him straight in the eyes.
I can justify my lie like it’s nobody’s business. Check this out:
- He was lying to me.
- Why should I give him my hard earned money when he has just as much opportunity as I do?
- Knowing that he’s gonna turn around and buy booze, if I give him the money, aren’t I essentially buying the bullet for his pistol?
- Maybe I’d pump some gas in his car if we were actually at the gas station. Giving him this money blindly is stupid.
- I need this money! I’m a broke college student.
Let’s skip ahead a few hours.
School is over. I’ve spent the past few hours regretting my previous encounter. If only I could do it all over again…
I start my car and groan as I realize that I’m gonna have to stop for gas.Â
While waiting in line for the next available pump, another bum approaches my car. This guy is straight up homeless. I can tell that he has absolutely nothing to his name. He puts two fingers to his mouth and silently requests a cigarette.Â
“Sorry, bro, I don’t smoke,” I announce.Â
He nods, mumbles some gibberish, and walks away.
A pump becomes free. I begin to fill my tank. Immediately I feel guilty. The ten dollar bill is burning in my back pocket.
The mental arguing begins:
“Ok, I’ll tell him that I have ten bucks and that I’m gonna take him to go grab a sandwich. We’ll head up the road, eat, chat for a bit, and then I can get back to my comfy, selfish norm.”
“I could barely understand this guy. What the heck are we gonna talk about?”
“It doesn’t matter. This is your second chance. What are you gonna do, blow it again?”
“This dude might murder me!”
Amidst my rationalizing, I acknowledge what is happening: “The devil is in my head right now and is trying his best to get me to repeat my mistake (for the non-Christian - I’m talking myself out of this). I can’t let him win!”
The bum comes back. This time he’s holding some sort of tool.
“You wanna buy a staple gun?”
Rusted, old, and probably broken, a blind man wouldn’t have bought the tool.
“No…I’m good, thanks.”
That was it. That was all I said. I blew it. Again.
That’s my story. 0-2 in one day. I hope and pray that next time will be different.
Quick rebuttal to a potential argument: Christians, we’re not called to decide how the needy spend the money we give them. We’re called to give. “He’s gonna go buy beer” isn’t an excuse (unless he makes it clear: “I’m gonna go buy beer”). We give. God deals with the rest. I struggle with this like CRAZY.
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